Diamond in the rough. The idea of potential has recently become hazy to me, what does potential even mean? I guess it’s what we strive for and what we ideally want for ourselves. The life we have seen and decided to have, we have to raise to this level of potential in order to have the chance of getting the dream. I don’t think potential is always a natural establishment within a person. Maybe we realise the level of our capabilities at some point within our life because we raise the stakes. Although, a few lucky bastards really are just talented and therefore have the potential to be something because of that.
When you realise a sense of potential for yourself then begins the necessary steps to fulfil your requirements. With this we have to be okay with failing along the way; and of course failing is extra perpetual towards the start of anything new.
Newness breeds the sentiment bad before it gets good, this is not easy to realise but its important to accept. I am currently developing my graphic design skills, illustrator paths and shape builder are not always smooth sailing but I just need to practice and hopefully get somewhere. As we fail the understanding is that not everything you create will be something you love; but you should at least ensure you are having a good time during the process or learning from the experience. The key is to constantly be evolving. Keep yourself propelling forwards.
I think the relationship I have with my artwork will be the rockiest one I ever experience; and some people have really tested taking the title. Thing is, this art is an extension of me rather than a separate being, it comes from my lived experience and what I consume, physically manifesting through muscle movement. I guess then maybe having a child will give someone a real shot of the rockiest relationship title. This connection like no other creates high stakes for when frustration arises as I perceive to be failing at my desired and idealistic outcome. Recently I have been feeling broken bridges between me and my art which require heightened effort to mend. Knowing the relationship with your creative progress can be strained at points is important to look ahead to. It’s not a forever feeling but unfortunately comes as a guarantee as our attitudes change and a sense of inability can be put on by external factors.
I think part of my damage has been done through a current impermanent living scenario: lots of moving too often; lots of money paid to Ubers transferring my stuff across London. Another blow has been the simulation of my life currently; I’m not really in regularity and this sense of habitual comfort found within my actual ways of living won’t come around for another month. To put it heavily: you are a product of your environment.
When addressing factors as to why things might not be going the best it’s important to not mould them into excuses of why you’re not doing something. They should be mental notes of what areas of life need focus so that you can carry on effectively without completely losing your mind.
Balancing my creative ventures has put stress on my art recently as it has temporarily taken a back burner. I am digging many channels of personal foundations at the moment. In graphic design; in improving my rhetoric for this blog; and evolving my art. Delving into graphics has been a huge push for me right now while I have the mental void away from formal studies in a completely different discipline. Unfortunately 9-5 life isn’t the nicest enabler for anything than a bank account so I can’t spend too much of my day with my ventures. This is to say, if you don’t have all the time right now at least establish your roots, make little strides forward so that when you have the room for big leaps it’s not an intense rushed struggle to make them. Starting is the hardest part. Familiarity is peace.
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